Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Missing Him

October 19th 2014...at approximately 8:15 am. I lost my favorite person in my life.  My grandfather lived 90 years.  90 years of changes.  It's been a little bit over a month and I miss him so much. He's always been there for me. He's always given advice without criticism or judgement.
My heart is broken.  My family is fighting over bullcrap that doesn't apply in life. It's so sad and my grandfather would be rolling over in his grave because of the drama.

Rest in Peace Papa.... I love and miss you more than anyone will ever know.

Saturday, September 06, 2014

Ahh Life and an update!

Things have been going great. Work has been horribly busy but I am thankful to God that I have a j ob and a well paying one at that. So in the last few months we've been taking Sarah and the kids out more and more as a family.
recently we went to the Monster Truck Jam in phoenix, Arizona...Photos are below (or above if I can't figure out how to post them right.) We are oing to Monster Jam World FInals in Las Vegas, NV next month...our whole family is excited...Now someone somehow get Sarah to start wearing her earphones..cause she screams when she takes them of and the monster truck revs the engine..and honestly I don't want my baby to have a hearing problem!!


I am sitting here...Sad...Thinking how can anyone shake a baby. Why would anyone shake a baby. It's the worst thing ever. If a baby will not stop crying...Put them DOWN..WALK AWAY. I sit here with my daughter laying in my lap she's cooing at me and I am totally in lovewith her. Unfortunately Noah Whitman's parents are struggling with what life has dealt them. Noah was shaken by his daycare provider. Shaken to the point of severe brain damage. Please Pray that God will heal this little baby. that this child's family will be cradled in the Lord's arms. Please visit his family at Noah's website http://www.noahsroad.com/ and leave them an uplifting message.

So many ups and downs

Sarah is 5 now.  She's growing and growing and we are having so many ups and downs.  She's in Kindergarten!!! My baby girl is officially in real school.  Granted it's only half days 4 days a week. But it makes it easier to manage her diabetes.  She has been going low a lot lately and it's so frustrating.  So we go to the endo on Monday and we will hopefully be able to figure something out for the time that she's at the school.  She's getting to be more and more into doing everything by herself. She's putting herself to bed, she's managing her diabetes.  We are struggling a little bit because when she is high I am trying to keep her from eating junk.  But she is 5 she wants to enjoy life.

We got chickens and ducks and a rabbit a while back. I guess it's been almost a year now. We love having fresh eggs. Nothing tastes better. The rabbit is Sarah's and her name is Bella.  Bella comes out to eat and then goes back into hiding...apparently she's not a very active bunny.  But what can we say :)  She's cute..and white.  I love watching my chickens. But Lord are those damn ducks loud and obnoxious!! and the Roosters..>Why?? I want to eat them!!! :)

I have been working 60 hour work weeks. I am exhausted. Between middle of the night blood sugar checks and the getting up at 6 am and not home until 6 or 7 at night.

I need more hours in my week so I can get things done. We have been dealing with a lot of medical issues with my husband and then Sarah two weeks ago broke out into terrible hives.  She seriously was head to toe hives.  I was in tears seeing all the pain she was in.  We dosed her with benadryl but even two hours later she was still badly broke out so we took her to the hospital. They provided her with Pepcid as well as more benadryl.  She was still broken out the next morning but she slept better than she has in a long time. By the next day though she was fine.  I just hate that she continues to suffer so on Monday at 9 am we will be at the allergist...and at 2 the Endo.  The expense of this is just insane.  And it sucks :(  so it pisses me off because it's totally not fair.  When we finally get a little bit ahead... everything get's thrown at us and...we end up sitting there and struggling for a couple of months to get back again.  WHY people..>WHY... But I have faith that our Lord has something in it for us all.  Thank you Lord and Savior for all that you have given us.  We are so special to have your grace and love.