Saturday, August 27, 2005

Girls just wanna have fun

I dont think it's entirely true that the only thing a man is out for is sex. However i'm beginning to think it's the majority of what they want. I want a man who can keep up with me in conversation as well as in bed. A man that knows what they want and is willing to tell me. I cant read minds. When someone asks what do I want to do, if I had a clue some days i'd tell ya! I thought men were the one's supposed to make plans. If I dont like the plans i'll let you know. When a man is asking me what i'm thinking about, be willing to listen to what I have to say and possibly give feedback dont go running off at the mouth over analyzing what i'm saying. Talk to me not my breasts. Dont think that just because i'm overweight that i'm desperate to get laid. If I have sex with you it's because I think your attractive (in some way), I think that we have met on some type of intellectual level and I think that you are a generally good person. If you decide were having sex dont make it about you remember me...i'm here with ya!. Sex is not just for your enjoyment. Me being with you is not because i'm lonely and need someone to be there with me. Sheesh. Give it up, if I wanted to feel alone emotionally i'd run away by myself

Catherine.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Men...

OK so if anyone would like to reply I'd appriciate it....

How is it that men seem to not know how to say "i'm not interested" so i've been seeing this guy or WAS seeing this guy. No big deal. After a while though when i'd call he would call back like every fifth call or not answer text messages etc...So i'm like OK i'm gonna catch a clue here..and I quit calling him and everything....but here's the deal..why can a man just say "i'm no longer interested i'm sorry" or something like that. Is it really that hard? I mean I give that concession if I date a man a few times and i'm not interested.....guess what.... I'M NICE AND I TELL THEM I'M NO LONGER INTERESTED!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!! is it that hard!!!!!!!!

I swear I want to give up...but like i've always said

" Men....Can't live with em....and Sex is no fun without them......"

Discovery Health :: Dr Drew :: Warning

Discovery Health :: Dr Drew :: Warning

So this is one of my all time favorite people to listen too LOL :)

Catherine......

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Darn Dentists


OK so this morning I get awakened by a dr's office calling to give me my test results......Everything was PERFECT LOL..MY MRI came back good, my tests all came back clean. I'm good LOL....So then i had to go to the dentist...he fixed the chip in my tooth and gave me two fillings and a cleaning. My mouth is a little sore now.

I also got prescribed the "patch" for birth control let's see how this goes LOL....

I'm hoping that it works well and I dont gain a bunch of weight on it we shall see how it works out...

C.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sunday afternoon...

OK so it's a little past the afternoon. I'm really not doing much. I got up this morning with the intention of getting ready and going to church. However my sister wasent feeling great and thus I went ahead and just took my niece to the mall so that she could pick up a present for one of her friends for her birthday party today.
Once I was done picking up the present it got wrapped and I dropped her off and came home...I wanted to take a nap as I was out till two am with someone.....that caused a whole other story LOL...

OK so I met a guy. I enjoyed my night with him however I'm not sure...It has nothing to do with him though. I wouldnt mind making this a LTR however I dont think sex on a first date is always appropriate...I know he wanted sex it was obvious as well as me wanting it however I said no..there's just something about a first date and in a truck and having sex and another thing..there's the whole birth control talk...i'm not on B/C and we didnt talk about if he had a condom or not and thus....I just didnt have it in me. It would be different today lol but I want to know someone before just screwing them.. we did fool around...and he was a good kisser and very responsive to touching and holding. I guess we shall see. I called earlier today and left a message for him however have not received a phone call back...who know's if he will call me back. I guess we shall wait and see and be thankful for the night I did have...

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Am I getting better? or just used to the pain.


Every once in a while I will come across a picture of my ex and I together. Back when we were happy. Gawsh how long ago that was.

I miss the togetherness. I miss the things we would do for hour's together like holding hands and talking. I miss having someone next to me at night.
I want to be loved. I want to know that someone loves me. But it doesnt happen. Why do I find the one's I can fall in love with but they want nothing to do with me? Am I so bad that I destroyed my one true chance at love.....

I pray daily that God gives me the strength to move on. But I swear each day is almost harder. I cant name a day that i've not prayed for forgiveness..And yet I was the one that didnt do anything.


I swear i'm a pitiful mess...