Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Am I getting better? or just used to the pain.
Every once in a while I will come across a picture of my ex and I together. Back when we were happy. Gawsh how long ago that was.
I miss the togetherness. I miss the things we would do for hour's together like holding hands and talking. I miss having someone next to me at night.
I want to be loved. I want to know that someone loves me. But it doesnt happen. Why do I find the one's I can fall in love with but they want nothing to do with me? Am I so bad that I destroyed my one true chance at love.....
I pray daily that God gives me the strength to move on. But I swear each day is almost harder. I cant name a day that i've not prayed for forgiveness..And yet I was the one that didnt do anything.
I swear i'm a pitiful mess...