Friday, February 15, 2008

Killing someone?

I will never understand someone's desire to kill another peson. I have in the past thought about ending my own life....When I was going through a divorce I wanted to die. I thought my life was over. And then life moved on and I am as happy as ever. And lately we hear about things like the recent NIU shooting where Steven Kazmierczak someone who is close to my age, a college graduate with honors who decided to walk into a classroom and open fire killing so far six students. What the hell was this person thinking. He took the lives of innocent people. Why?
Although I have wanted to smack the hell out of someone out of their stupidity I have never thought of harming someoine physically beyond that. Who the hell does someone think they are..>That their life is so bad that theyu should take not only their ownlife but that of someone else. That is not fair to the people that are killed by them at all. If you are going to kill someone tell us why. Don't make us wait in pain and agony. The pain left behind we will never heal from. It is horrible and we will forever be jaded by it. If you feel the need to kill youself fine...but leave the innocent people out of it! For those mothers out there that want to kill themselves...fine..but don't kill your kids....

Stupid freaking people just piss me off :( It's just plain sad and disgusting.
I pray that the family members of each of those that are innocent are

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Trials and Tribulations

I'm so excited. I just found out that I got the job that I applied for over a month ago. The new position let's me wrok from home, Make more money, Get a company vehicle and just plain have fun. I haver to run away to Ohio for five weeks so i'm going to miss the hell out of my family. but I have to say we shall persevere.

There is going to be a lot of changes going on as well because I do have an awful lot of work to do before I can work from home. Moving Dennis and I into the larger bedroom, cleaning up and painting the house and things like that. I"m excited though all the changes i've been wanting for a while will happen because they HAVE too :) and thus I learned...All things will happen eventually but will normally happen only when they are required. and if someone bitches..well i'm the one having to be alone the longest. Five weeks with no family..and away from my twin again... and my step kids. i'm going to miss the heck out of them. Oh and as always hubs too..I love him

Friday, February 08, 2008

Valentines Day...The day to make the world sad..

once a year like tax time, or your annual pap smear comes the day that is called valentines day.... do you feel bad yet??? no??? well you should because thats what its all about... unless your rich and taken

for those of you out there who are alone, single, widowed or for whatever reason have nobody. maybe you just want to forget but no chance of that this month unless you put a pick axe through your brain. the commercials are there to show you the presents and the attention you are sure not to be getting from that special no one.

are you taken??? well men, see those diamonds on TV and the happy women receiving them??? well you should feel bad for not buying one for your woman??? why??? because the commercial says so. does it matter that you treat her wonderfully? no . does it matter that you cant afford it? no! use a credit card.dont get me wrong, I have nothing against diamonds personally, they never cut me off in traffic or eat the last piece of pizza in the fridge, but they are an extravagance that people should not be pressured to feel bad about if they dont have the expendable money to waste on it.

Ladies who are taken, unless you are in highschool, this is a babyish holiday, seriously, you are a woman not a teen in a popularity contest to show off your trinkets. unless you landed a rich one, dont expect diamonds. be happy with the flowers that will die, believe me he over paid for those just to make you happy, or the candy or whatever he gets you. remember he had to go to a public place and buy this sappy girly stuff in front of other people. if that aint love, then what is?????

(I had to borrow this from my friend michelle. she's just friggin awesome...

Sunday, February 03, 2008


For the last few months I have been looking for a new job. The company I work for is awesome in so many ways, but many of the changes I am unhappy about. I want to be able to succeed, and yet I do not want to have to drive 50 plus miles each way. I spend ten hours at work add three hours a day for drive time and I'm exhausted before I get home. I am grumpy and whiney and frankly not very nice.
Now... I am in the running for a position with a cool company that would give me the opportunity to succeed, work from home and get soem traveling too. Travelling would be awesome. Being able to go away and know what I get to go back to would be interesting. I have also been looking forward to this job and I dont even know if I am going to be getting it. I will find out on or before the 8th. So anyone reading this, please pray for me like crazy!! I'm